Monday, February 1, 2010

A Part of Us

Nine years ago Scott and I did the hardest thing we have ever had to do. I was 18 weeks pregnant with our identical twins. We went in for an ultrasound all excited to find out the sex of our babies. The tech thought she saw girl parts on one of the babies, but found a problem and instead concentrated on that. We were immediately sent to Dallas where we found out our babies had Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS). It was a very serious case and they gave us maybe 30 minutes to an hour to decide what we wanted to do. VERY DIFFICULT! Scott and I cried and prayed and did what we felt we should. We were only 25 & 26 years old with no kids and barely understood what was going on! We went to Dallas 2-3 times per week for a month for treatments. All the while I was on strict bed rest trying not to worry too much about my job and the kids I was teaching that year. On Jan. 29th we went in for our appt. and found out one of our babies, Maci Reagan had passed. Sometime during the treatments we found out we were having girls. They wanted us to come in the next day. They said if the other baby, Marli Reese, was going to go too it would be soon. Just as they thought, we found out the next day at our appt that she too had gone to be with Jesus. We were sent back home to my doctor where she induced labor and I delivered them early the morning of January 31, 2001 at 22 weeks gestation. We went on to plan a funeral and bury the babies we never knew. Our boys know that they have older sisters that are in heaven and they ask about them quite frequently. Sadly, this is just a part of us.




8 comments:

Jennifer said...

Oh April.. I did not know this. Thank you for sharing and my heart goes out to you for your loss. Wether you knew them or not, it is still a loss, you still bonded with them. I had a miscarriage back in 2002 while DJ was deployed. I was only about 8-10 weeks pregnant, but I had already known about it for a month because we were trying right before DJ left. In just that month, I got so attached.. I cannot imagine having gone through 22 weeks. I am so glad you tell your boys about their sisters that are watching over them.

Jaimee said...

April, what a precious family you have. Thank you for sharing, so many women (myself included) have had similar experiences. What a hope we have in Jesus and a knowing that this life is temporary.. and the other side of glory hold so much for us and is our true eternity. Love to all of you..

Krystal said...

Oh April I am thinking and praying for you today.

Kim Soileau said...

I cannot believe that it has already been 9 years!!!! I can remember those days like it was yesterday!!! I hope you know I love you very much and your family holds a special place in my heart...

Jennifer said...

i knew of your story, but did not know the exact details. thank you for sharing. one day you will get to meet those sweet little girls!! i'm glad their memory is still a part of your family. thinking and praying for your family.

Marlager said...

Through the storms of life, we grow. Look how much God has given you since then. I know that time of your life will always be a part of you, and you are forever changed. God chose you to have a testimony of faith! When you share how he picked you up from that time, His glory shines all around you. The smiles or your children beam the beauty of God's plan. I love you and your precious family!

Kris said...

April, I will never forget this. I will always think of your two girls. I don't know if you remember Kate and I have 4 brothers in heaven, too. I think of them just as your boys think of their sisters. Love to you, Scott and your entire family.
Kris

Beaula said...

Thank you for your honesty...it's refreshing to know we can share with one another even the toughest of life's circumstances. I've been in your shoes and so I understand your pain. I guess we take life's blessings along with it's heartaches. I take comfort in knowing we'll all be together again one day.

 
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